Did I worry anyone there for a bit? Probably not, no one cares about one more drop in the ocean.
But I arise once again! Finally I have internet, and I am starting to run out of things to watch on my hard drive (didn’t see that coming), so I figured it was time to dust off my tumblr and start recording my life again.
The first thing I’m going to share? Surprisingly, it’s nothing groundbreaking or pretty or neat, but it has to do with something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately: language acquisition. Currently, I’m living in Japan, and let me tell you, there is nothing really like a sink-or-swim situation to gently push your language skills and confidence forward lest you drown in ignorance, isolation, and complications.
Interested in learning a language but can’t quite take that step? Think something is barring your way? Have one of these problems? One of the things I have come to understand is that language isn’t perfect. The speakers aren’t even perfect. There is no one correct way to say something, and even if you don’t sound like everyone else, as long as the other people can figure out the gist of what you’re trying to say, you’re golden. Gestures also help A LOT as well.
The strangest thing by far, though, is realizing that, to my co-workers, I’m actually the barely intelligible foreigner in the building. When I look back in my past, I remember the immigrants living in my apartment or working in stores and my impressions of them. I mean, I would barely get a feel for their personality, and even though I knew they weren’t stupid or slow, I still didn’t immediately place them in the “intelligence” or “humor” category or…really, anywhere at all. They were just there, and I labeled them as “neutral foreigner.” It’s weird to be on the other side of that fence—there’s so many things that I am and that I can do, and I think I can be fairly amusing irl (if not sarcastic and punny) and I can hold in-depth discussions about a variety of topics, but…none of them will ever know that about me. In an alien language, I can’t be funny or intelligent or even properly rude; I can basically be polite and amiable. And it’s a bit depressing and sad in the end, because probably, to them, I am boiled down to “nice-enough American girl.” I think, for one of the first times in my life (or that I’m willing to admit to myself), I want to be the one talking about myself to other people. I want to be able to tell me stories and prove that I’m not just some vanilla character. Before this, I definitely enjoyed listening to others and their experiences (bus rides get way more interesting) more than wanting an opportunity to talk about myself. But now? Not only can I not express myself properly (or even show personality through something as simple as slang), but I can’t fully understand others’ stories when they’re talking with me. Sometimes, it can be quite frustrating. Thank goodness for internet friends with whom I can use proper grammar and idioms.
Anyway, gonna wrap up this hiatus-breaking post with another link about language learning:
And, seriously, one of the best things you can do for yourself is just start talking, no matter how grammatically bad it is. Half of my verbs aren’t conjugated correctly when I speak. But, the more you talk, the more you start remembering bits and pieces of grammar to stick in, and even if you get it wrong, the other person will most likely understand what you’re trying to say. Recall times when an English learner talked to you, and how you commended them and maybe corrected some of their speech. It really didn’t matter that it wasn’t perfect, though. When you’re learning a language, others will do the same. It’s all about communicating, not communicating perfectly.
"Eric can’t talk right now because he’s servicing me sexually."
This show is great.
I am just really not used to a smartphone and so posting to tumblr from it kind of blows my mind
It’s a sad day when an innocent google search spoils you. People SHOULD NOT WRITE ARTICLES WITH TV SPOILERS AS THE HEADLINE.
New computer means having to re-customize everything and debating about starting over from scratch or importing all of your old stuff from your backups
It also means scrambling to find the one plugin you need to get tumblr videos working without downloading all of the other unnecessary ones
I have never wanted to be able to draw and paint as much in my life as I do while watching Grimm. *tears hair out*
(by Chelsea Fagan)
1. “Oh, my god, they’re finally watching it. They’re finally going to see it. Must organize all snacks and blankets and pillows so that no one has to move during the next two hours.”
2. “Also must remember not to mouth along the words to all my favorite parts, lest I look like a crazy person.”
3. “Why are they not looking at the screen? They are blinking too much — they’re going to miss all of the good shit!”
4. “They didn’t laugh at the funny part. Why didn’t they find that funny?”
5. “Is this movie actually not that good at all and I just have really shitty taste in entertainment?”
6. “Lol, no, this movie is the best.”
7. “I know that they’re technically watching it, but it feels like they’re not really seeing it. They clearly think this is just some movie like any other.”
8. “No, you can’t get up to pee. WHO GETS UP TO PEE WHEN THE BIG REVEAL IS ABOUT TO COME ON THE SCREEN.”
9. “Ugh, it doesn’t matter if we put it on pause, the whole momentum of the movie is completely ruined now. They’re not even going to remember where we were when they get back.”
10. “Maybe I’m laughing too hard at the jokes and it’s making them uncomfortable.”
11. “I really need to get online after this and talk to some people who can actually appreciate what this movie is about.”
12. “Why do they care if I’m staring at them through the whole thing? I already know it by heart, I just want to make sure their eyeballs are absorbing it in the right way.”
13. “Of course they cough during that line. Of course.”
14. “I’m never showing a movie to anyone ever again, it’s totally not worth it.”
15. “Am I visibly sweating?”
16. “God, if this is the kind of lackluster reaction they’re having to this when it’s right in front of them, I had better never show them the Tumblr fandom.”
17. “Wow, I totally can’t enjoy these love scenes when there’s someone sitting next to me. They need to leave me alone with my movie for a minute.”
18. “Oh my god, they hated it. They completely hated it. I can’t even believe how much they hated it, it’s not even funny.”
19. [Speaking] “WASN’T THAT AMAZING?!?!?!?!??!!”
I’m a little behind the times. Is there a way to still reply to replies? I don’t see the little speech bubble hidden under the “Ignore” button anymore.